By Hayley Fern
At all of my first dozen meetings, someone new has asked me how I came to discover Quakers.Â My reply is always the same: I happened to read a book which talked about it with such agreeable descriptions that I became curious.Â The book was Notes from an Exhibition by Patrick Gale.Â As a visual artist my reasons for picking it up were to do with art.Â What I actually got from it was much more.
Being accustomed to the internet, oneâ€™s easy access to information, I quickly found the Quakers online and applied for an introductory pack.Â Delighted to receive a whole package of small books and leaflets I soon found that what I was reading was actually a description of who I already was.Â In fact, it was who we all were: my husband, my children and I.Â It described our ethos, our attitude, our lifestyle, and our beliefs.Â
Next, my first meeting; I had seen the A-board outside the meeting before, inviting in visitors and friends but I had never ventured inside.Â I went alone and was greeted with incredible warmth â€“ the only way to describe it is to say that everyone treated me as a new friend.Â I still find that name utterly appropriate and appealing.Â I have always considered my role on the planet to be a friend, a friend to others; a friend to the earth.Â Being called a friend is part of this journey and part of who I am.Â
Finally: the silence.Â It is almost impossible to describe how powerful this simple silence is.Â Sometimes I treat is as prayer, sometimes as space.Â I am learning how to hold someone in the light, which is just beautiful.Â Not being led, conducted or taught allows for a freedom I have never before experienced.Â Before this, how often did I just be still, waiting for the silent voice of God?
So, I am a newbie, dipping my feet in the water and trying out a few chairs at meetings.Â Â Being in my thirties,Â I am not the youngest or the oldest to appear in this place. And, I am still to completely grasp the way this quiet organisation conducts itself and finds the balance between structure and nonconformity.Â I know that I will continue meeting for silent worship because it works for me.Â I know I will learn and grow and eventually understand everything I need to.Â But, the main thing for me is that I am already a friend.Â It just took me a while to find everyone else!
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I loved reading about how you found Friends Hayley, it puts into words many feelings I share. I found Friends over 20 years ago and am still as glad, being a Friend has changed my life in so many ways for the better.